"Motherhood had swallowed me up"

"Motherhood had swallowed me up"

When I found out I was pregnant with my second baby after just giving birth four months prior, I fell deeply into an immediate depression. 

Motherhood had swallowed me up instantly and I seemingly had no way out of my new reality.

Each morning brought an overwhelming sense of fear and heaviness while simultaneously showing me a new purpose to survive.  As I submerged myself deeper into this chapter of my life, my relationships shifted.  A few of my closest friends, including Torrey and Allison, opened their empathy up to me as wide as they possibly could without having experienced what I was going through. 

These women asked me questions and got to understand my experience as true friends would and should.  With them I was able to listen intimately and deeply to my body and my screaming spirit. 

I had been buried, and the nourishment I needed included a sense of acceptance, gentleness, patience and strength from myself and those who truly love me. 

Today I wear Red Jasper from Longtime Sun to remind myself of the vitality within me to care for my babies as my body continues to heal and grow.

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